Last night I returned to my apartment after a long journey of a day on campus. I got a 7% on an exam. Yes, the single digit integer that follows 6 and precedes 8. Although I try not to allow grades to enter the ‘sacred space’ of my mind-where my dreams and fairy friends live and where butterflies float around whispering words of wisdom from Jerry Garcia- I did take a hard long look at myself in the mirror when I got home. And do you know what I found?
I found kale. Right between my 2 front teeth. I ate it in the library for dinner, which means it had been there- right in the center of what was supposed to be my facial display of happiness- for 7 hours. My God, I thought, why don’t i just go live on a deserted island where social embarrassment is minimal and and my only worries will be whether I’m tall enough to pick coconuts and pineapples and if the monkeys get along and I wonder if they have the Dharma Initiative and- Wait, did I even talk to anyone in the last 7 hours? … No. It occurred to me that my daily human interaction level is about a 3 on a scale from Tom Hanks in Castaway (0) to Elle Woods pre-Harvard acceptance (10).
Do not think that this is some declaration of self pity. I actually kind of like it. After years of going to parties and having roomates and friends and boyfriends and people around almost at all times, I’m learning to appreciate what it is to be alone. To just exist with myself. I’m diggin it. I’ve become more confident in my own skin.
Sometimes I do yearn for more human connection (Isn’t that the point of life?). But the solitude has helped me to appreciate the relationships I do have. My dad told me, “I’d rather have 4 quarters than 100 pennies”. Me too, dad. Me too.
So, thank you kale– for supplying Vitamins K, A, and C, and for being the vehicle for a beautiful realization.
Happy National Kale Day! Now go celebrate.
P.S. I have recently named my bike ‘Wilson’. She is my most loyal and beloved inanimate object <3.
P.P.S. Here’s an interesting article- NPR’s take on Kale Day! http://www.npr.org/blogs/thesalt/2013/10/02/228499704/is-it-time-to-cool-it-on-kale-already?utm_content=socialflow&utm_campaign=nprfacebook&utm_source=npr&utm_medium=facebook